Mine, forever.

It is May, finally! I love May because it belongs to me. It's mine. :)




But..............











It feels extremely terrible when your birthday falls on the exam week. Have you gone through this before? It has been 4 years I didn't get to have a proper birthday celebration. I had been celebrating my birthday with the BOOKS for the past three years. I was feeling tensed up when the exam is going on. It's not a big deal, indeed. I am wishing for a simple birthday celebration which can brighten up my day. Seriously, I feel awful whenever my birthday is around the corner. =(

I'll wait for another 23 days more. :)

Her recent life.............

As the clock ticked to 12o'clock and marked that it was the first day for 2010, I thought this would be a wonderful year for me, I thought it will all turn out well in the end, I thought I will have a happy-ending for 2010. Yet, I found myself has been slacking a lot since the beginning of the year. It seems like I am taking life for granted. Now, since it is already end of April, I find life is not easy to go smooth. It has ups and down everywhere, anywhere. Its like how people describe life is like a roller coaster. I'd been facing a lot of troubles recently which I can't even help myself to solve them at the moment. I felt like throwing tantrums on friends, on siblings, parents, cousins..... In the end, I will still keep it to myself and let it washed off itself without my knowledge. From my result for monthly test 1 & 2, you can see there are many differences between this two. I meant it seriously. I deserved the marks I received for second monthly test. I did not give a damn and I did not even care to bother the consequences I've to face when I got back the test papers. Its too late to change the fact that I'd been really slacking, but I had to accept the fact that it is reality. REALITY, I said. I had to accept the marks that I deserved for this test. I deserved that because I did not even bother to study for the test. Like, simply flipped through those pages. People often remind me this quote: it is too late to cry over the split of milk. Yet, I still take this quote like nothing. Till the day I knew my marks, I blame myself for not revising earlier, I blame myself for being so stupid and all. Perhaps, I haven't discovered my own study method, which I really hope it to be discovered soon. There are too many things to get them all done in such a limited time. Well, nothing much about daily problems, but the workload as well as tension of being a form4 student. Seeing my classmates passed their exams with flying colours, they motivate me to move on with a more Rocking study life. I shall be bullish all the time. :) Bless me!

Have a good day!

The yellow-ish day

Hold on me tight, I am lost in nowhere.

• I am slacking after this test, tonnes of homework nicely arranged on my study table, smiling at me. Yet, I am still blogging away here. Slacker I am :)
• Results will be out tomorrow. Awwww :(

Lovely weekend.

It feels good when you have the time to get together to your loved ones :]

I didn't expect my Saturday would turn out to be oh-so-awesome-pawesome day! It has been ages since I last hung out with my close friends. Today, started a convo with Jas randomly and
ended up we planned to hang out for a movie. yeah, managed to watch a movie-Date Night. The movie was not bad, but it is not worth paying RM11 for this movie, seriously. Then, walked around Jusco and Jas was searching for her Roxy's stuff. She seemed to be really care for her Roxy, a caring and good master, right? Sayang her banyak banyak tau. :)

Well, I am so looking forward for the next outing together with Jess. Its gonna be fun. I just miss the fun, the laughter and the fooling moments we used to be last time. Loves!

♥

ps: Ice Kacang Puppy Love tomorrow. Wheeee

They, who came into her life.

Just when I logged on my facebook account few days ago, I received this warm and lovely message from my very best friend. .This message touched my heart.




Yes, everyone has friends, good or bad, best friend or enemy. Yet, have you ever try to think about who are your true friends? Did you?

Friends do mean a lot for me. As i grew up, I find life painted with more colours when friends are around. I have best friends in different stage of my life. I have a best friend in my kindergarden school, my primary school as well as my secondary school. Yes, I met different people in every chapters of my life. They are the one coloured up my life with beautiful memories. They were all by the side giving me support, showing how much they cared for me. New friends, Old acquaintances, Close friends, each and every of them pulled me up when I fall, count me in for every occasions and outings, whispering into my ears supporting me to stand up strong again after a fall.

I have true friends around me, be by my side whenever I need them, lend me a shoulder for a good cry and give me a warm big hug when I am down. I really need to do some catch ups with them. I really miss the time when we get-together, teasing and playing a fool on each another, shouting crazily and many more.

Now, I feel good when reminiscing back the old memories that took place throughout my life These are the memories that worth sharing and will always be cherished forever. :)







p/s: 30 days to my birthday! Wheeeee.....

Keep on moving, keep on going.

Setting myself free for a couple of days.

The 2nd monthly test two is officially over.
The conclusion of this test:

For me, this test was happened to be worse than the previous one. Seriously, now I finally realized, the paper is actually tough and tricky when a teacher said the paper will be easy-pitsy, will be a piece of cake for all of us. :-( I know its too late for me to cry over the split of milk, lets let the bygones be bygones. Its too late to change anything right now, for I revised and put in more effort in the very last minute.

Yes, I am now freedom for this few days, out of the stressful exam week. Mid term is in 3 weeks time. Such a sad. Hopefully I will be well-prepared for the next test. Praying real hard, craving for a better result for the next test.

the more you learn, the more you know,
the more you know, the more you forget,
the more you forget, the lesser you know.

I'ma going to study for the next exam. Why? Because it is m-i-d t-e-r-m! :)

Gahhhh... I am gonna skip school for the next two days. :P The decision is out. Lets hope for the best. Peeps, good luck for the results! :)

Let me make you smile :]

Yes, it was a long week. :)
I felt devastating when the test fall on next Monday!! Why am I still slacking all the time like there's no test on Monday. I am not feeling tensed up about this test, is this a good sin? Forget about it, it's a must for me to face the book for this lovely weekend. Such a bore :(

Books ya Books,
can you ♥ me more when I just hate to see you everyday?
♥ me, or else I will stay away from you.
♥ me ♥ me ♥ me!
Then I will ♥ you ♥ you ♥ you!

Law of garbage!

A good story to read :-)

One day I hopped in a taxi and we took off for the airport. We were driving in the right lane when suddenly a black car jumped out of a parking space right in front of us. My taxi driver slammed on his breaks, skidded, and missed the other car by just inches! The driver of the other car whipped his head around and started yelling at us.

My taxi driver just smiled and waved at the guy. And I mean, he was really friendly. So I asked, 'Why did you just do that? This guy almost ruined our car and sent us to the hospital!' This is when my taxi driver taught me what I now call, 'The Law of the Garbage Truck.'

He explained that many people are like garbage trucks. They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full of anger, and full of disappointment.
As their garbage piles up, they need a place to dump it and sometimes they'll dump it on you. Don't take it personally. Just smile, wave, wish them well, and move on. Don't take their garbage and spread it to other people at work, at home, or on the streets. The bottom line is that successful people do not let garbage trucks take over their day. Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so.....

'Love the people who treat you right. Pray for the ones who don't.'

Turn out the other way round.

"Are you feeling stress? You don't seem to be in your normal happy-go-lucky mood these days."

Yeah. A friend of mine asked me this 2 days ago. This was literally true. I felt my soul was gone, I felt weak, I felt moody, what else? I am down to dilemma these days. Everything seemed to happen at the wrong time. Ever since I came to f4, I felt things really different if compared to the past days. I didn't realise that I can get emotional easily, never once. Yet, things had turned out another way round as I expected. Everything that happened recently made me feel tensed up at the same time. Sometimes, negative thoughts pop up in a sudden. I was trying to deny all these negative thoughts, yet, my mind can't stop picturing it. Why?
I questioned myself, "Am I creating all this problems that shouldn't have appeared in my life?"

People tend to throw out their feelings to whoever they are close with. However, I am typical type. I,myself know about it. I always afraid people might get annoy if I release all on them. I am willing to lend my shoulder for them who needs a good cry, I am willing to sacrifice both my ears for those who wants to release their unhappiness. But why? I can't stop questioning myself why, why, why, why?

Out of a sudden, this thought hit my mind. I rather choose to show them I am fine, smiling like I always do. Instead of reveals my unhappiness and depressing emotion on face. Sometimes, I was thinking about where is my good listener? I can be one, but where is mine? The matter actually is because of myself. It was all me. I never want to standout to voice it out. I always preferred to keep everything as low as possible. This somehow made me tired, I meant it. Both, mentally and physically tired.

Giving a piece of advice for people who are having troubles, suffering quietly at one edge is easy. As I always do this to my friends, my closest.. Nonetheless, I can't succeed in doing this to myself. I wonder why it only works on the other people, why not me, too? Regardless how hard, how strenuous, how persevere I have tried, it still does not work.

As the saying goes :

A smile a day keeps the pain away.

Somehow, this statement is not valid in me anymore. It does not cure the pain, instead I am still in agony.

I need a wide green field,
I need a blue calm ocean,
I need a refreshing hill,
I need a big warm hug,
I need a comfy cozy bed.



Perhaps, I need a wake up call, too?

You Enlighten My Favourite day.

Brownie-Roxy!

The new master for Brownie,
How are you and the puppy? Getting a much closer relation, I assumed?
It seems tiring to handle it, train it so that it has a much closer relationship with you, right?
All the best, Ms.Jasmine :D

The colourless rainbow...

For Once,
the day was long,
For Once,
the depressed mood hit her,
For Once,
tears flowing deep inside,
stressful thoughts can't slope off her mind,
floating freedomly in her....
A greyish, gloomy day, it was.
What is happening around?
Where is the colourful; beautiful rainbow?

Melancholic

Get out of detriment, remorseful Life?

People change, Things change, Lives change
Perhaps, this is neither starting nor ending.
I am unable to feel the same way like what I was in the past.
The mark is there, the wound is still undergoing recovery,
Perhaps, this resembles a LESSON to life, my life.
Yes, a Life lesson for me to mould a better well-being.