As the clock ticked to 12o'clock and marked that it was the first day for 2010, I thought this would be a wonderful year for me, I thought it will all turn out well in the end, I thought I will have a happy-ending for 2010. Yet, I found myself has been slacking a lot since the beginning of the year. It seems like I am taking life for granted. Now, since it is already end of April, I find life is not easy to go smooth. It has ups and down everywhere, anywhere. Its like how people describe life is like a roller coaster. I'd been facing a lot of troubles recently which I can't even help myself to solve them at the moment. I felt like throwing tantrums on friends, on siblings, parents, cousins..... In the end, I will still keep it to myself and let it washed off itself without my knowledge. From my result for monthly test 1 & 2, you can see there are many differences between this two. I meant it seriously. I deserved the marks I received for second monthly test. I did not give a damn and I did not even care to bother the consequences I've to face when I got back the test papers. Its too late to change the fact that I'd been really slacking, but I had to accept the fact that it is reality.
REALITY, I said. I had to accept the marks that I deserved for this test. I deserved that because I did not even bother to study for the test. Like, simply flipped through those pages. People often remind me this quote:
it is too late to cry over the split of milk. Yet, I still take this quote like nothing. Till the day I knew my marks, I blame myself for not revising earlier, I blame myself for being so stupid and all. Perhaps, I haven't discovered my own study method, which I really hope it to be discovered soon. There are too many things to get them all done in such a limited time. Well, nothing much about daily problems, but the workload as well as tension of being a form4 student. Seeing my classmates passed their exams with flying colours, they motivate me to move on with a more Rocking study life. I shall be
bullish all the time. :) Bless me!
Have a good day!
