The 16 years of living in this lovely Earth, I've never seen meteor shower before. Although it is sort of impossible to happen, but the opportunity is still exist if we are lucky enough to catch a glimpse of meteor shower and make a wish. I received a message that there will be meteor shower at around 1-2am last night. At the moment, I thought of staying up late to make some wishes if I were lucky enough to see the meteor shower. In the end, I decided to go for my sleep instead of staying up late because I need sufficient sleep for the next day of school.
Well, if I were lucky view the meteor shower last night, I would make some wishes although it will disappear real soon in the dark sky. There's just this special wish that I really hope to wish for at this moment. I wish I were the one who takes care of my grandma well. Its not that the person who takes care of her now is not being good enough. Its just that I feel guilty when I see wrinkles slowly appear on her skin. I can't bear to see her going through the painful moments as she is a diabetes patient.
She is being tough enough to go through this illness,but deep inside her, she feels helpless when everyone worries about her. She doesn't seem to care about her diabetes condition, she never want to look for doctors to make her feel better, she is always stubborn whenever my aunties tries to get her out to the clinic. Her wounds never seem to heal and cure all this while although my mum have tried her best to get the best medicine to wash the wound, to apply medicine on her wound. Hers is considered as the chronic wound. You will definitely go "ewwwww" if you ever see it.
2 days ago, she has been admitted to hospital after being persuaded by my uncle who came all the way from Johor. I was surprised of getting this news from my mum. I was really down when I saw her under this condition. It was just out of my expectation that she would be admitted to hospital. It must be a very chronic condition, I thought. Even my relatives and my grandma's siblings also thought that she must be in a very serious condition that she has been admitted to hospital. Now that she is in a bad condition. That is the reason why I said I would make this wish as priority if I were given a chance to make a wish when I see meteor shower. I really hope to see her recovery after the operation. It just sadden me in some ways that I can't bear to drop my tears whenever I think about it.
This made me realize that I have to appreciate every moments that I had gone through with her. I know that she will be leaving me someday later, I need to spend more time and visit her more often to shrug off my guilty feeling before it is too late.
I love her as much as the way she loves me all this while. ♥
